I am not sure what intimacy is. All I know about is sex.
anon.
I crave intimacy but at the same time afraid to let people get too
close. One reason is they will find out what a worthless person I am
and the other is that they eventually will find they do not like me
and will push me away just as I was beginning to really think that
this person really *did* like me....and then I get hurt...again.
With my closest intimate relationship, I am very intense and focused
on him and terrified that someone will come to ruin this perfect
relationship.
Diane
I am extremely uncomfortale with being emotionally intimate with most people.
This is directly related to my fear of rejection and abandonment. Being
around other people frequently raises my anxiety level because I often feel
trapped.
Claudine
I deeply crave intimacy, particularly touch (non-sexual) now.
And I can achieve intimacy at times, although I'll question it over
and over. Like if I had an intimate talk with someone, and don't
always, it feels like that talk never really happened. I am afraid
of it too, because I am afraid of hurting someone and getting hurt
myself if I get too attached. I love intimacy, except it's all
wrapped up in possible abandonment for me.
anon.
Intimacy, what is that? It terrifies me. I feel like it will kill
me if I get too close to anyone. People are not safe, life is not
safe, getting to close just engulfs me. I don't understand it all
though cause I wish I could be like everyone else and be and feel
close to people...but I don't. I don't really have much use for
people unless they can give me what I want. Intimacy is too risky,
I don't think I could ever be that real. I don't know really who I am
and so I don't know who I would be being if I was ever close to anyone
If someone gets too close I take off and or I push them away. I punish
anyone who tries to move into my space.
John
I really want intimacy in my life. It hurts a great deal to not
be close to anyone really right now. I do have a boyfriend, but I
don't feel to close to him, or like I can really trust him. He wants
to be close to me and it scares me a lot. I can't stop pushing away
when someone is too close just like I can't stop pulling at someone
who feels too far away. I don't know why but everyone either feels
too close or too far away.
Susan
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